As I write this from an ill-suited iPad, my lifeline (aka 7-year old MacBook) sits in a repair shop downtown waiting for a diagnosis. One that I hope is not fatal. I don’t have a deep attachment to many material things (sure I love my shoes but if I lost them all tomorrow I’d still count myself as very #blessed) but my laptop is different. As I sat staring/crying at it all last night when it wouldn’t boot past the home screen I started to wonder just why it was that I felt such a loss. Most of my pictures are backed up on an external hard drive.. although some pictures and graphic design work from my portfolio will undoubtably be lost. But it’s more than that.
That laptop was the first grown-up purchase I made when I graduated college. I searched for my first New York apartment on it. It contains the first email chain that Adam and I ever wrote to each other 5+ years ago. The running schedule I mapped out to complete my first half marathon. It’s what I packed (along with little else) when we packed the car and drove cross country to live in LA. And what was most crucial for the trip back to New York. And perhaps closest to my heart, where a little blog idea grew into what The Steele Maiden is today. I realized that losing it would feel like losing a piece of myself, however silly that may seem.
So send your good vibes, well wishes and happiest thoughts my way that we’re back up and running in no time. That little laptop and I still have quite a bit to share with you.
I’m sorry Jess! I hope that you are able to get it fixed and don’t loose anything important. xoxo
Thanks Val – after 6 days I just got it back today and not only were they miraculously able to recover everything, with the new hard drive and more memory it’s working better than it has in years. A blessing in disguise <3
xx